Korey Tuttle My Awakening
Forty
years in darkness would seem like a difficult journey and a long wait
to find the light, but it was well worth the trip. What seemed like a
typical night working the graveyard shift at Xerox turned into the
beginning of a year of long
sought after answers. My job was a solitary one in which I remained in
my iPod world for 8 hours mindlessly scanning documents. It was April
16th, 2009 about 3:45 am when it started.
I
was just back from my lunch break when quite suddenly I began to
understand why. When I say “why”, I mean all of them, every single one I
had ever pondered and quite a few I had never considered. It was at
this point I realized I was waking, though I had not heard that term
yet. I did not have the internet until Feb. 26, 2010. When I say I
didn’t have it, I mean we had no computers, no video games and no cable
television. We watched DVDs when we watched TV, so I had no
technological influences in my awakening and had read no books since I
finished Voltaire’s works in 10th grade, some 25 years prior.
I
was given a choice at this point. I was told by Divinity I could stop
or continue, but continuing meant a solid year of extreme intensity the
likes of which would cause me to question every ounce of sanity I held.
Obviously I answered with a resounding “Yes, I will endure this year”
for to turn it down would be to stay in darkness and I had been there
far too long.
Now
that you know how it started, I will give you a small idea of what that
year held for me. Keep in mind this is in no way an account of every
detail, but more the highlights of events.
First
I spent a couple of months channeling both Divine entities and points
of view of murderers, rapists, and all brands of violent people. The
worst one locked me in a vision loop for 10 hours. It was of a woman
who had gone to the hospital for help with severe post-partum
depression. The hospital turned her down and 3 days later she stabbed
and ate her 6 month old son and was found in a pool of blood still
devouring her child screaming, “I killed my baby! I killed my baby!” I
lived every point of view of every person affected by her actions. It
took the help of a priest to pull me out of this horrendous vision.
I
was then pulled down into the Abyss (quite against my will and fried 5
different industrial scanners in the fight due to the electromagnetic
discharge). I spent 40 days in a row to fight my balance twin for the
rights to this vessel. While in the Abyss, different entities would
inhabit my vessel so from the point of view of those around me it would
still seem like I was there. (Luckily my job was one so simple a monkey
could do it and we were not allowed to talk so no one questioned
anything.)
The
first night, I was chained naked to a wall in the Abyss face to eye
with Tiamat’s red head. The walls of the Abyss are black and similar in
looks to tar, but they have no sticky or slimy texture to them. There
is heat, but no fire and the only light has no visible source though I
gathered it must have come from the depths of the Earth and the core, or
Center Sun. Tiamat then proceeded to rip off my eyelids so I could not
close my eyes and rip out my tongue so I could not scream. With a
single claw, she then proceeded (with great joy I might add) to
re-perform my open heart surgery, grabbing and holding my heart as she
explained the battle I was about to undergo. Obviously I came out as
the victor, much to the chagrin of my balance twin.
A
couple of months later, I was afflicted with a seven demon possession,
the purpose of which was to show me the true colors of the Catholic
Church. I found the Church to be less concerned with my spiritual or
physical health (as the demons would prevent me from eating or drinking
for days at a time) and more concerned with portraying a false sense of
holiness. In the end, the priest who performed the exorcism actually
took full credit, when it was Divinity that ended it, not him.
A
little side note here, possession is not like the movies where some big
shadowy entity inhabits your entire body. It is more like a brain
parasite that works you like a puppet. You are aware, but not in
control. Your voice and strength are not your own and when they
retreat, you are left with only partial memory of what happened. You
also feel as though you have been beaten from the inside out.
During
the first half of the awakening, I was subjected to such darkness,
including being sent to Oblivion twice, to give me proper perspective. I
have been to the Abyss more times than I want to remember and thrown
into the “nest” over and over until I figured out that when I finally
said, “Go on!! Tear me to shreds, do what you will. I don’t care
anymore.” The demons got bored with my submission and left me alone
after that. That was the lesson I had to learn. Darkness has no power
but that which you give them.
Then
the awakening turned to a full-on light experience. There is more
power in thought than is commonly known or understood. There were
nights I would receive intense revelations that literally threw me back
physically or elevated me 6 to 12 inches off of the ground. I had some
power control issues at times that resulted in my pulling down a total
of 5 meteors and manifesting two thunderless lightning strikes. I was
sent through a Supermassive Black Hole (astrally of course) to show me
the flow and workings of the universe. But the most intense night, the
one moment that stood me on the edge of sanity was to have the memory of
not only who/what I am and the beginning of the universe and how it was
formed, but also to be stood face to face (not a vision) with my true
form. Right there in living color and form in my living room, I stood
vessel to true form. I had a difficult time coming to terms with that
kind of reality and for months I would get extremely upset if anyone
called me crazy, even as a joke.
So
that is the abridged version of my awakening. Now that I am fully
awake, my work here is in full swing. I am Luminakisharblaze. I am the
descended Goddess of Fire and Emotion. I am the fourth original energy
to break through the void. More importantly, I love all of you
children and ask only that you look around this world and see that there
is no differences between you that you do not concoct yourself. You
are loved by all of Divinity and you need to stop seeking things and
look around at what you were given by Divinity. All that is needed for
every person to survive and live full and happy lives was put here on
this planet. It is time for you to live for Divine purposes instead of
the newest gadget. It is time for you to stop the fighting over which
path is right, for they are all right. If there were but one path, the
road would be very crowded. And mostly it is time for you to embrace
love and rebuke hate. No matter what you call Us, for We are One but
Many, We hold no punishment for your choices. Your choices will offer
you the balance you create from making them, whether those choices be
conducive to happiness or conducive to misery, you will ultimately reap
what you sow. So make sure the crop is one you want to eat.
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